Ako ay naninirahan sa Quezon City nitong mga panahong ito, dahil kung hindi ay masasayang ang ibinayad ko para sa training na aking nilahukan (?) sa QC dahil sa tindi ng traffic sa Imus at Bacoor tuwing umaga dahil sa mga putang inang traffic enforcers kadahilanang hindi ko matanto.

Sa aking tinutuluyan ay tatlo kaming... tumutuloy. Pero kadalasan (o sa lahat pala ng pagkakataon), kahit na 6:00pm na ako umuwi ay wala akong nadadatnang tao sa kwarto. Dumarating sila ng mga 8:00pm o 9:00pm pa.

Tapos walang TV. Walang radyo. Walang computer. Walang internet. Walang magawa kundi mag-browse ng mapa o di kaya'y magbasa ng mga bagay na may kinalaman sa nursing. O kaya nama'y matulog kahit hindi inaantok. Dinala ko ang gitara ko doon noong isang linggo, pero minsan ko lang nagamit dahil kadalasan ay wala ako sa mood tumugtog.

May makakainan naman sa umaga doon mismo sa tinutuluyan ko, pero kapag gabi na ay kailangang sa labas na ako kumain. May karinderya sa malapit, pero noong huling beses akong kumain doon -- hindi sa nagi-inarte ako, pero... -- gusto kong isuka ang kinain ko doon. Luma na ang ulam, malamig pa. Pero inubos ko pa rin, at dumiretso ako sa McDonald's.

Sa mga ganitong pagkakataon na wala naman akong magawa masyado pagkauwi ay mas ninanais ko pang magtrabaho o duty na lang nang mas matagal. Wala lang.


Myx Mo! 2007. Nagpunta ako. Pero hindi ako nakapasok. Hindi ako pumasok. Nakita ko ang dami ng tao sa loob, at nawalan na ako ng gana. Andami pang mga black men na nagkalat sa labas na tila salot.


Masaya sa pinagdu-duty-han ko ngayong mga panahong to. Kahit na toxic pag dumarating ang 10:00am at 2:00pm, masaya pa rin. Isama na rin ang mga ka-grupo kong napakaligalig (?). Masaya ako't nakakasundo ko ang karamihan sa mga kagrupo ko (karamihan, dahil yung isa doon ay hindi ko pa nakakausap kahit isang beses).


Pagkatapos ng training ko, ano na?

Mukhang lulunukin ko ang aking kapalaluan (pride... amp. hahaha). Mukhang maga-apply na rin ako sa ospital na dati ay kinamumuhian kong maigi.

Nagpunta kami nina Dustin, Jacque at Mark (Eblamo) sa Enchanted Kingdom kanina dahil may libreng tickets na pinamigay sa amin ni Dustin si Mark. At ayun... unang sinakyan ay ang Space Shuttle. >_< ISANG MALAKING PAGKAKAMALI!!!

Sumakay pa man din ako ng Space Shuttle para ma-videohan ang ride na yun, kaso natakot ako sa paulit-ulit na sinasabi ni Dustin na "Malalaglag yang camera mo!". Kaya naman noong nasa tuktok na kami (kami nga pala ang nasa pinakalikod), inipit ko na lang ang camera ko sa pagitan ng hita ko. >_<

Nahihilo pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. >_<

#1 Pumunta ako ng QC noong Linggo dahil dun ako maninirahan sa loob ng limang linggo. At maya-maya, nalaman kong naiwan ko ang wallet ko sa loob ng kotse namin na pinanghatid sa akin, e nakaalis na ang aking itay pauwi ng Kabite. At wala siyang phone. Hindi ko siya ma-contact. Wala naman akong ibang dalang pera, kaya nangutang agad ako para makauwi ng Kabite. >_< Pagkabalik ng Kabite ay bumalik na naman ako ng QC. >_<

#2 Hangover >_< Sabing huwag iinom nang sobra e. >_<

#3 Naglakad ako mula Quezon Avenue hanggang PKDF sa Don Alejandro Roces Avenue sa ilalim ng init ng araw. Akala ko naman malapit lang. Sabi ngang ang malapit sa mapa ay hindi nangangahulugang malapit sa tunay na buhay. >_<

#4 Isang beses, mula Don Alejandro Roces Avenue ay naglakad ako papuntang... Sgt. Esguerra sa tabi ng ABS-CBN compound. Wala lang.

I was looking for a room to rent in QC. I was searching all afternoon long yesterday, and I found nothing. It's depressing. Really depressing. But that did NOT make me want to cry.

Earlier, I again went to QC in search of a room. Yesterday, I saw a flyer. It says, "Room for Rent <address> <contact number>". So there, I visited the location earlier.

When I was already inside, he opened a door. I looked inside. It was dark. There were no windows -- not even one. There was nothing. Just an empty space. I thought it was just a storage room (since construction is ongoing in some parts of the area). I then realized that it is one of the rooms.

The man then told me to follow him, and he showed me other rooms. They were just like the first one, with a minor difference -- there is a window. But the window is small. Very small. About the same size as typical windows in restrooms. An empty space plus a small window... >_<

As I was standing in front of the room, I felt very uneasy. There was heaviness. I felt like crying. In my mind, "Ok lang sana kung matutulog lang ako dito, pero paano ako magpapalipas ng oras dito?!"

Maarte? Try seeing the room for yourself, and think about staying there for 5 straight weeks.

Waaaaaah.


Fortunately I found something better. Something that has been there ever since day one (?). Whew.

My feet (and legs) just experienced a terrible beating.

#1 I sent all of my requirements for licensure application in the US via FedEx. And to do that, I had to walk great lengths (?) inside Robinsons Manila searching for FedEx. *stop there* I looked at the directory / "You are here" of the mall, yet, there really was no FedEx at the location indicated at the directory, so I went back all the way to where the directory is situated (it's far dammit) to double check. After checking, I [stupidly] went back to where FedEx was supposed to be *what was I thinking?! That FedEx might appear during the second time?!* Finally I asked the customer service representative inside the mall (hard to find also), and finally found where FedEx was.

#2 I went to Quezon City to search for rooms for rent. I searched throughout the Scout area... by foot. From Don Alejandro Roces Avenue, I reached Timog Avenue. Then I walked through the different streets there, hoping to find something. Yes, I did find something, but they are either for sale or the rent is P55,000/mo. >_<

#3 I decided to go home during rush hour. It's so difficult to drive during rush hour because of the heavy traffic. Driving becomes agonizing. >_< I found out that traffic jams are good workouts for the gastrocnemius (calf) muscles.

TAMBAY MODE AAAAAAAAAAAAMP!!!

I'm saying goodbye to my looooong "rest" which started last June 11 (the last day of the local nursing board exams). I'm gonna be über busy (über amp) starting this Wednesday until December. But since getting a job isn't easy, I might find myself bumming around again for a few weeks (up to a few months *gulp*) after the "busy period". But at least I will already be doing something beneficial for my "professional advancement" now (?).


Retrogression aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamp!!! Screw that.

(intro of U2's "Vertigo")

Bono: "Uno... dos... tres... catorce!"

*hahaha*

Or I should say, necessary things I want (?)

• External hard drive (100+GB) -- my 80GB hard disk is almost full >_< And besides, I'll be needing this when I go to the other side of the map (?)
• Canon dSLR (ideally an EOS 40D, but any will do) -- I think it's time for my dream shots to be turned into reality (?)
• 70-200mm f/2.8 lens
  
• Bass guitar -- I want to learn more than just hitting the root notes on a bass guitar.
• Drum set -- I want to learn how to play drums. Waaah.
• e-aji with pepper mayo dip -- I'm hungry

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah (?)

My uncle (my father's younger brother) suffered a stroke just last week. He was confined in General Emilio Aguinaldo Memorial Hospital (GEAMH), the same hospital where I used to work as a student nurse.

At first, my uncle was suffering from partial paralysis because of the stroke. Then yesterday, he went into coma. He was then given bag ventilation ("Ambu-bagging") because he had already lost his ability to breathe on his own.

CT scan results showed bleeding in his brain, particularly at the thalamus part. There were also blood clots in his brain, and a rupture in his brain could instantly worsen his condition and result to death.

Earlier, around 10:00pm, I went to the hospital with my father. The main purpose of our visit was to hand the relatives the money for a mechanical respirator to support my uncle's breathing. When we arrived at the hospital, he was already pulseless. The staff called the doctor, and immediately requested for CPR to be done. And what happened next? The nurse-in-charge was kind of dumbfounded, and was very slow to react. Nurses should be efficient in their jobs because lives are at stake. They are not new in this area. They do this everyday, so why the slow reaction?! And to think that my uncle was in the critical care unit! They could at least move FASTER!!! Some student nurses are actually better than the nurses there that night.

After a few minutes of cardiac compression, the doctor ordered to stop it. There was no way my uncle could survive anymore. The doctor then pronounced my uncle dead.

I have seen people dying before back in my duty days as a student nurse, but this one really felt different. Even though I'm not close with my uncle, I was deeply affected. But what made things worse was that only few of my uncle's relatives were there to help during that time when he needed most of their support. My uncle may have done terrible things in the past, but that is not a reason for people to not care at all. Sad. Very sad.

Despite my uncle's not-so-good life here on earth, I still believe that God has a special place reserved for him in heaven.

I was in Cebu during the last week of September. I came back to Cavite last September 30, not knowing what's in store for me in the following month.

While still recovering (?) from missing Cebu, I had my oath-taking at Araneta Coliseum (damn traffic!). I also underwent a hepa screening test, because I was planning to apply for training at *institution*, but I ran out of slots. I thought I would be able to start training last October 15, but that did not happen. Waaah (?). I will not call that an "unfortunate turn of events" though. Since I had a lot of free time in my hands, I was able to go to gigs of various artists. I discovered new kinds of music. I was also able to meet new people and make new friends (thus overcoming my "fear of meeting new people", which was primarily caused by *toot*). If I had started training by mid-October, these would have not happened. *or maybe they still would have*

It was also my first time to drink beer in an Oktoberfest event. Quattro's beer tastes so good that I don't have to hold my breath while chugging a bottle (haha). I got drunk once though (stupid moronic imbecile).

It's not the way I envisioned my October would be, but it was fun and memorable.


Last year's post (Nov. 5, '06):

Today is Sunday. It is currently 1:46AM in the PC's clock as I am typing this.

Ito ang last day ng aking last (I think) semestral break. My three (3) weeks of freedom will be over soon. Nasulit ko nga ba ang aking sembreak? Gagawa ako ng recap.

Oct. 11 (Wed) - last day of exams, official start of sembreak
Oct. 12 (Thu) - gym, kumain sa fiesta sa Imus, nanood ng gig ng MOJOFLY
Oct. 14 (Sat) - gym
Oct. 15 (Sun) - pumunta sa Podium para panoorin si Sitti
Oct. 16, 18 (MW) - gym
Oct. 20 (Fri) - gym; pumuntang Makati para manood ng gig nina Kirk (ulol), at malaking perwisyo ang idinulot nito sa akin
Oct. 22 (Sun) - nagtungong SM Manila upang panoorin ang MOJOFLY
Oct. 23 (Mon) - gym; pumunta ako sa SM Megamall para panoorin si Sofia
Oct. 24 (Tue) - *kilig* (huh?)
Oct. 25 (Wed) - makeup duty *yahoo*
Oct. 26 (Thu) - wala, gym lang
Oct. 27 (Fri) - pumunta ako sa Podium para panoorin ulit si Sofia
Oct. 28 (Sat) - gym ulit
Oct. 29 (Sun) - naglinis ng kwarto
Oct. 30 (Mon) - gym
Oct. 31 (Tue) - sa bahay lang, bertdey ni ama
Nov. 1 (Wed) - sa sementeryo duty ko, 2pm to 10pm
Nov. 2 (Thu) - gym
Nov. 3 (Fri) - natulog lang ako buong hapon. Napaka-unproductive ng araw na to.
Nov. 4 (Sat) - Eastwood sana, kaso cancelled ang show ni Sofia. Sayang.